A YOGI CHA BLOG

The hardest part of the journey

The most difficult thing you have to do, is to put words into action.

We read and read and listen over and over but as long as we don’t actually take in, nothing will ever change.

When you wear sorrow like a beautiful scarf around your neck, then everything seems just a little too far away from your grasp. Like there is some secret handshake just for a selected few to access the magic. It must, because nothing seems to work. I’ve tried everything there is, I am still unhappy.

Hm. Yes. Because out of the over 7 billion people in the world, you are the one it does not work for. So it must be all BS. It must be that there is something I have not yet discovered, that really will heal me. I just need to get that fix. That external remedy that will make it all go away.

Like Alan Watts said, I don’t remember the exact quote but he explains how we search at church, the temple, amongst the buddhists for something…. “I am still looking for what I was searching in the candy store. I want that goodie.”

Is it that we’re too lazy to do the work or is it that we’re afraid it would actually work. It would mean we would have to change. We probably don’t think that consciously. We probably think the opposite, that it would maybe not work. So why bother trying?

What if I try and I fail? In any case, I’m not good at trying new things because I usually don’t stick to them. And somewhere in that twisted mind, there is comfort in those ideas. Because it feels familiar. Because it feels like someone you know.

When you’re facing someone in sorrow, it wont work to sugar coat. Actually, they will most probably experience that like gaslighting. And it is. In their world, it is mayhem. It’s dark and cold and very lonely. So you, sitting there, saying things that seem to belong on an instagram post or a sale’s pitch from a self help “ten steps to” course will seem like a lie. And it might very probably be one. Because maybe you don’t really know either but it sounded so good when you listened to it. Maybe, you have 15 tabs open on your browser because you saw so many articles that seemed fascinating but at the end of the day you haven’t actually read any of them.

The person in question needs to be put in a position where they are not comfortable. It is too easy to get caught up in the nursing role of saying “let me help you”. Just so they can turn around in a while (think days, weeks, months or years… depends) and say it doesn’t work because what you’re selling isn’t working. Your goodie isn’t what they need. And actually, it’s true. It needs to be their own goodie.

And since it’s up to each and everyone of us, the only thing that actually can take you from vibration A to B is experiencing it by yourself.

And the thing is, you just need to start. You need to take the first step and then decide that it is worth it to stick to it. When you begin to work, genuinely, you will start to feel better. You will begin to notice tiny changes, maybe you can deal with a physical pain a little calmer. You might catch yourself repeating words of separation in your head. On why others don’t understand you. The next time you do that, you realise it’s something that is a pattern and you might even choose to turn your eyes towards something else in order to change your perspective.

Then you start to realise that you change the way you act in habitual situations. That you position yourself differently when in conflict with someone. You begin to feel as if something has changed. When you feel that, you want more. So you go back and do it again. And then the practice isn’t work anymore. It is just life.